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K L Thursday, August 6, 2009
@ 8:02 AM
Bought up as a JW
Does anyone feel that being bought up as a JW has made you naive and clueless when it comes to living everyday life. I have found it really difficult to try to live a life of normality and not having being "taught" if you like of how the outside world works has got me into considerable trouble when dealing with everyday stuff such as money ETC.... Does anyone else feel the same? or is it just me???

Wednesday, August 5, 2009
@ 4:01 PM
To Teresa T. and SORE
Teresa, as far as I am concerned the terms SPIRITUAL WIDOW and SPIRITUAL ORPHAN, with regard to the JW cult is ridiculous. I think spirituality in this 'religion' is practically nonexistent. It's legalistic, not spiritual. It's a black and white world. Spirituality is a beautiful thing when it comes to God and Jesus Christ. Jesus didn't preach legalism. He is spiritual, and the Witness 'faith' is not. SORE, I am very sorry your job opportunity didn't work out. After all, you are not responsible for your ex-husband being a pedophile. It's got nothing to do with you! Why indeed would you want to go back to that 'cult' while you know your ex-husbands are attending in and going door to door? As for myself, I never want to go into a Kingdom Hall again. The way that 'religion' is run is so cock-eyed, it feels toxic. Genuinely sickening. Yes, stay away from it, by all means.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009
@ 3:43 PM
To Ospot
Your brother thinks your personal trauma in your life is and attack on his faith?!?!?! Huh?! Wow, that is so illogical it isn't even funny! Don't compare your terrible experience to other people's experiences. Your experience was very, very bad and traumatizing. I am so very sorry about your brother's attitude, especially in light of the fact that your sister-in-law was also a victim of pedophilia. Unfortunately, his attitude seems to be so typical of elders. I'm really sorry, and it makes me so mad! I believe that many Witnesses, including elders were probably very nice, kind, and caring individuals before they got involved with this weird cult. Their thinking gets 'done over' by all the wacky, outlandish conditioning, and they become almost like different people. Arrogant elders. What could be worse? Anyway, do not underestimate the seriousness of what happened to you as a child. It was horrible. You were used, abused, and exploited. People really need to start informing the police about any kind of pedophilia among the Witnesses. Because they're sure as shooting not going to get help from the hardened elders! Your brother's thinking is way off, obviously, just as so many elders' thinking is, off the wall, totally.

SORE Sunday, August 2, 2009
@ 11:14 PM
Away 12 years...
That is how long I have not attended meetings at the kingdom hall...recently I have had more dealings then usual with my active witness parents...I never realized how many of the teachings they had twelve years ago now they have changed...Of course they went after me about attending meetings as to them this equates getting life in the paradise if one attends...they seem to judge that I now have no good reason for not attending...The ruling family here sided with my pedophile x husband and helped him to spread his slander even to their relatives who were not witnesses...This effected my getting a position with the Health Unit here which I found out recently lead others to relatively good jobs in the community (its a small town) which lead to incredible hardship and poverty for my children and myself over the last 12 years. The woman who interviewed me for the position blasted me with my x's slander...As I told my father they destroy people...Both my x's are still going to the kingdom hall and are remarried...that is how I know sex offenders still go door to door because they are both still inside...WHY WOULD I WANT TO GO BACK THERE!! WHY WOULD I GO BACK THERE TO GIVE THEM AN OPPORTUNITY TO DO MORE HARM TO ME!!!As I tell everyone I can serve Jehovah...I have a bible...I can read...but seriously its all one big snare and money making racket???? Jehovah probably thinks so too!!!!!

Teresa T. Saturday, August 1, 2009
@ 6:31 PM
Spiritual Orphan
Good Afternoon, I quit the JW organization on my 15th birthday. Best decision I ever made. Anyway, my mother and brother are still involved. I was having a phone conversation with one of my mother's friends and she was carrying on about how her daughter had married a worldly person. Her daughter and grand children are now regretting that they do not have a JW husband and father. I wasn't really listening to this crap but she made the statement of SPIRITUAL WIDOW and SPIRITUAL ORPHAN. She was referring to her daughter and grandchildren. I became angry and told her off. I haven't heard of that label before. Have you? What is wrong with these people?

Scott Terry Wednesday, July 29, 2009
@ 9:17 PM
Writing about JW life
Hey Y'all....I found this site to be really helpful 5 years ago when I first thought of writing about my experience in "The Truth".....I now write a blog for the FreeMinds site, and have found that to be a lot of fun. I also have a book that should be published sometime in 2010.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009
@ 3:51 PM
To pcw
I can't answer for Ron V., of course, but I think many people are possibly still "insiders", because they feel stuck, caught in the web of this cult, due to having family and friends in it. The WTBTS traps people in the Jehovah's Witnesses' religion, making so many of them feel like they have no way out. I don't think they are being "chicken". They just literally feel, well, stuck. Cults are terrible so-called religions or organizations that don't care a whit about the people they hook in with their oily, phony ways. It's disgusting, and what is so very, very sad is that the "rank and file" don't know that they have been fooled, and if they finally realize they have been fooled they "don't know where to go". I hope you keep coming back Ron V. and that you can find your way out of this cult, because that is exactly what it is.

Ospot Tuesday, July 28, 2009
@ 1:40 PM
I spoke out and lost.
I cannot make too much comment about this, for it is still a painful episode in my life, but I can attest that this is fact true of the culture surrounding Jehovah's Witnesses and pedophiles. As a child in the congregation I was taken to a park with a brother, absolutely unaware of what was about to take place. Although not as terrible as the stories that have been made clear to me by other people who have had far worse experiences I was manipulated by this brother to expose myself, while he exposed himself to me. I never made mention of this embarrassing incident to anyone until years later after I left the congregation. My brother now being an elder and someone who I was always close to during my time there learned of my experience years later. After listening to me and confirming that others have accused that brother for the same thing, he also made me aware this his own wife was a victim of pedophilia from an elder. He also explained that it was kept quietly under wraps and that the elder lost his privileges. The alarming part of his response to my confession, and to my shock was that although he just learned, supported my accusation, and even enlightened me further with a greater horror story was that the only concern he made apparent was in his exact words "this is why they will not give him any privileges". I was mortified that my own flesh and blood brother condoned having a child molester in his or any congregation knowing fully well that they do in fact prey in the congregation. He didn't seem concerned as to whether this dirty old man should be cast out, or disfellowshipped, or most importantly reported to the authorities. NO, it didn't seem to phase him at all, he somehow has this naive notion that the society is not responsible in any which way and that is an individual problem, that should just be ignored. This conversation only came about when he mentioned to me the death of the pedophile's wife. My brother and his perception of what is truly just and his lack of respect for authority has truly warped his judgment along with the rest of the elders who contribute to this epidemic. As a result of this confrontation, rather than provide me with a platform of emotional loving support, he views this personal trauma in my life as an attack on his faith. This is testimony to what many will ignore and call slandering. It does happen, and it does continue to exist. It is very good that this Silentlambs allows people like me to speak out the truth, about the same organization who will behave in ignorant and callused ways to try and protect that self proclaimed title at the expense of it's very flock.

pcw Thursday, July 23, 2009
@ 7:42 AM
Ron .V
"Ron .V Thursday, July 16, 2009 @ 3:28 PM Thank You Most of these comments are true. I am glad to see that someone is out there can see through the lies. I also like that there is a group actually looking at truth rather than deception. From an insider" My questions to you are: If you are an insider and can agree with most of these comments being true, why are you still "an insider"? And, If you know these trues, why are you still part of it? Wouldn't that make you just as guilty, know these things exist, yet you do nothing but agree. Please understand that I am not trying to attack you in any way. Just wondering ....

Tuesday, July 21, 2009
@ 12:42 PM
To Richard Race
You have a severed arm?! And injuries that will never heal?! And you were only eleven?! How horrible and terrible for you! You and your siblings had a truly appalling, horrific, and traumatizing childhood! I am so glad you posted Silent lambs. Please keep coming back. You will get a lot of support and encouragement here. Are you in therapy? It can help a lot. It can help you to hang in there! How are your siblings doing? It's unbelievable what so many children go through in this "religion"! It's really unbelievable! How can parents be taken in by this sham so much that they abuse their children?! I am so angry about what happened in your family, Richard, and in so many others! There must be a lot of parents with mental illnesses in this cult! Why else would they treat their children so inexcusably?!

K L Tuesday, July 21, 2009
@ 7:21 AM
Re: Kind message left for me and Fey
To whom it may concern: With regard to your message dated Monday 20th July, Thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement. I do not live in the US, and trying to get through all the abuse issues on my own has been a challenge. I never felt so alone and as always you sometimes think you are alone in the way you think and feel. I would say, and I may be wrong here, that the mental and emotional abuse is the most difficult to overcome. I cannot help but feel so guilty and ashamed of what it has made me into. I do not feel so alone now though having come across this website. We ALL to some degree have been damaged by this religion. I hope Fey by your experiences your are beginning to heal. I have already expressed my thanks to the creator of this site and wish them continued success in people coming forward. One thing we all must remember. JEHOVAH'S WITNESSES ARE NOT ABOVE THE LAW. They cannot continue to hide behind God and continue to give him a bad name. I certainly WONT be turning to any kind of religion for relief in my lifetime in a hurry. May I take this opportunity to wish all the members and guests on this site well in their path of healing. With all my love and kindest regards K L

Monday, July 20, 2009
@ 3:29 PM
To K. L. and Fey
I am so saddened by your histories, your experiences. I am so very sorry about everything you have been through. One thing about these cults is that they are truly shams, so bogus. But, their power isn't real - - they just want you to think it is so that they can get away with their control games. In order to keep JWs in the cult the WTBTS has to do a lot of power tripping. And when it comes to the pedophilia issue, the so-called leaders of JWs doesn't want to let people to do the right thing and go to the police or social services, because then it would get out that there is a very serious problem with pedophiles in the Jehovah's Witness religion. The WTBTS claims that exposing the problem will tarnish Jehovah's name. Baloney. They just don't want to be exposed and have their pearly white image tarnished. That image is just a facade. Also, the blood issue? Whoa. That's a good one. If people can receive different parts of blood during surgery, then why not whole blood??? What's the difference, really? Boy, would the WTBTS have some overwhelming lawsuits about the blood issue if they were more open and honest about it! Whoo!!! Anyway, K.L. and Fey, I am so very sorry about what you have been through! And other members of your family, Fey. There's no excuse!

Richard Race Sunday, July 19, 2009
@ 12:56 PM
Family Damages
I am definitely amazed with the website and organization you have designed here. I was abused (mentally and physically) for years with "The Truth." This religion attacked my family at the foundation my "mother." She was always preaching or singing about Jehovah and as a single mother of 3 boys, forcing us to the meetings. A mentally weak mother forced us into this garbage 4 days a week and much more. Shielding us from the world and its "satanic" ways. Hi, let me introduce myself at this point as Richard Race. I am now 23 and live away from my family as it has been destroyed completely by Jehovah Dog. (much like Sadam and Gamora) Originally from Rochester NY, I now reside in northern New Jersey, with wounds that will never heal (including a severed arm with a ruptured artery from when I was 11 because I refused to go to the meeting) Bowen, I have emailed you for help in terms of coping with the situation. I would like to send you pictures of my arm. My mom attacked me for the Jehovah meeting and help to subdue the corporation known as the watchtower and tract society.

Ron .V Thursday, July 16, 2009
@ 3:28 PM
Thank You
Most of these comments are true. I am glad to see that someone is out there can see through the lies. I also like that there is a group actually looking at truth rather than deception. From an insider

Fey Wednesday, July 15, 2009
@ 5:03 PM
This is so comforting
I am so... heart broken and touched to see this website. I am crying so hard reading the personal experiences, as I have my own. So much happens behind the closed doors of the kingdom hall. I lived with my mother and stepfather when we came into "the truth". It wasn't long before the beatings started, before the rape of my older sister (which happened nearly daily), the beating of us four younger children. I was put through more than I am willing to say on the internet, and on multiple occasions. It hurts so much to think about it all, and what my mother must still be doing to the two of my siblings she still has custody over, but they are brainwashed into the cult's doctrine at such a young age. Since I got away from my mother and step father when I was in fifth grade, I have been in therapy, and now, more recently on medication. I finally came out and started talking about what happened more recently. They said that it is what caused me to be in the place I am now. I am diagnosed as being chronically depressed, bipolar, and I suffer from ptsd, and have attempted suicide numerous times to get away from the memories. It's just all so much. It makes me so sad to hear that so much of this went on behind closed doors, for everyone. This evil, this brainwashed horror serves to hurt so many, I wish there was a way to end it, but it will never end. I wish I could afford to donate to this site, but I can't. I feel so sad that we are united in grief such as we are, but what else can we do?

K L Wednesday, July 15, 2009
@ 2:18 PM
Alex: Re: Was Michael Jackson shunned?
Hi Alex In my humble opinion I do believe that he was and that is why he was considered by some individual's eccentric. I speak from experience, I had to leave my family home at a very young age and all family members Wittneses and non Witnesses have categorically stated that I am dead in their eyes for issues that I cant really or feel that I cant go into at the moment. It is a very lonely life, I think despite his success, he was a very lonely Man. Success means nothing without friends and family.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009
@ 1:12 PM
Sick
Shannon, Angie, and A.S.M.W., what you have been through is just sickening and heartbreaking. Not to mention gut wrenching. And I am so sorry! Nobody should have to endure the things that you three have endured. Hang in there and be the strong people you are, and take good, good care. It's so true, what happened to you, and what has happened to other people is not the victims' fault. How anyone could ever think it is beyond belief! That kind of thinking is so sick and irrational it's appalling. And you victims out there, never be afraid to go to the police! They are the RIGHT people to to, and so are people in social services. The elders are the last people victims should go to. The "religion" just wants to cover itself from the WTBTS down to the elders. Never be afraid to go to the police. Please. It's crazy for a 'religion' to assume power, control, and authority over people. That's exactly what CULTS do. Any of you still in the JW faith, please realize this! Only cults treat people like this. As if the so-called 'rank and file' are a bunch of pawns or something!! Well, you're not! Don't be afraid to think for yourselves. Ever. And it is SO wrong to try to repress people, to oppress them by discouraging people from asking questions, even from expressing any doubts. People should be welcomed to express themselves freely, not have to fear the consequences if they do so. That's CRAZY. Be YOURSELVES, for Pete's sake. Okay? Please?

A.S.M.W ENGLAND Saturday, July 11, 2009
@ 6:20 AM
I CAN RELATE
HI I CAN RELATE TO THIS SITE. I HAVE LOOKED AT YOUR SITE AND THE INFO ON HERE MANY TIMES OVER THE LAST 10 YEARS. WHILE I HAVE BEEN RECOVERING FROM 3 DECADES OF SEXUAL AND PHYSICAL AND SPIRITUAL AND EMOTIONAL ABUSE DISHED OUT ON ME BY THE J.W.s AND SOME OF MY OWN FAMILY MEMBERS. THANKFULLY AFTER 14 LONG YEARS , I AM FREE OF THE J.W.S AND THEIR WAY OF THINKING. I HAVE ACCEPTED WHAT HAS BEEN DONE TO ME AS A CRIME AGAINST ME.I IN NO WAY HAVE BROUGHT THIS ON MY SELF.I DO NOT HAVE TO FEEL GUILTY BECAUSE OF WHAT WAS DONE TO ME BY ANOTHER PERSON OR PERSONS. THEY ARE THE ONES WHO ARE GUILTY AND OUT OF CONTROL. I HAVE NOT DONE THIS ALONE. I HAD A LOT OF SUPPORT TO BREAK FREE AND RECOVER MY OWN SELF TRUTH AND VALUE IN LIFE. I HAVE ALSO WATCHED OVER THE YEARS HOW YOU HAVE TRIED HARD TO NAME AND SHAME THE OFFENDERS. I AGREE TO WHAT YOU ARE DOING AS A WEB SITE, THESE PEOPLE SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED TO GET AWAY WITH THIS. SO TO ANY ONE OUT THERE WHO HAS ANY DOUBT THAT WHAT THE J.W.s COULD BE WRONG, THINK AGAIN. AS A WORLD WIDE ORGANIZATION THE JEHOVAH'S WITNESSES HAVE CONDONED CHILD ABUSE BY NOT DEALING WITH IT , OR PUTTING ANYTHING IN TO PLACE WITHIN THEIR ORGANIZATION TO PREVENT IT FROM GOING ON. WORST STILL THEY TEACH YOU MUST FORGIVE OR YOU WILL NOT BE BLESSED. THIS RUBBISH , AND LIES THAT'S WHAT THE J.W.s TEACH. TO END, NEVER EVER LET ANY ONE TELL YOU IT IS OK TO ABUSE A CHILD AND GET AWAY WITH IT. THANK YOU FOR THIS SPACE, AND ALLOWING ME TO SHARE MY THOUGHTS. GOOD KARMA TO ALL OF YOU OUT THERE WHO SURVIVORS. YOU ARE NOT ALONE, THERE ARE MANY OF US OUT HERE WHO HAVE BROKEN FREE AND NOW LIVE OUR OWN LIVES AND ENJOY THE FEW PRECIOUS MOMENTS OF HAPPINESS, THAT THE UNIVERSE HAS GIVEN BACK TO US, WHICH IS THE CONTROL OF OUR OWN LIVES AND ABUSE FREE. A.S.M.W ENGLAND

Alex Monday, June 29, 2009
@ 6:30 AM
Michael Jackson (was he shunned)?
Hi everyone. Since Michael Jackson quit the Jehovah's Witness religion would his mother and brothers/sister who were baptized members not been required to shun him? If that was the case I can understand why he went so strange in repect to his behavior. I have seen people who have left this religion who are under a lot of stress caused by losing family. Just wonder what others think. Take care.

angiec0307 Sunday, June 28, 2009
@ 4:08 PM
You know
I quote from the Jehovah's Witnesses new release of the great teacher book It states Do not let anyone play with your sex organs then say firmly in a loud voice "Stop that! I am going to tell on you!" I'm sorry but the molester is not going to listen to that especially if say this person is the child's father and no one else is in the house....... What chance has a child got against say a 30 year strong man ?? Just my thoughts I am a survivor of sexual child abuse through my father and was brought up in the JW religion. It should be reported to the police not kept secret. Open your mouths and shout out little lambs-- don't let the wolves have their wicked ways.

shannon Friday, June 26, 2009
@ 2:29 AM
My horrible story of being a witness!
I would like to thank for the people who build this site and its inspired me to have a voice. I was a JW since Dec.1995 and I was 12yrs old. There is this man who offered to bible study with me, and my mom become JW after one year, and in one year of studying with him, I believed so much of what I learned in a bible, and I trust him completely. To make the story short my mom was sick and I'm not qualified to work yet, the man finally appear after maybe a year without seeing him. He told me he will help me on my schooling, my spiritual and also my mom, and my goal to be here in the United States. The first day in his house I was 16, 17 yrs, old he ask me if I can take shower with him, and he is giving me sort of body massage or whatever to get physical contact on me, and finally my own innocence kills me, I have been molested and doing it repeatedly every night, and he warns me never I speak to anyone on this regard, and he also says I have nowhere to run into since he told me he was the only one can help me on my problems, other than that I change my personality as a hostile to him on public which is the only way for me to get him back, people who respect him often think "why are you helping Shannon that is so bad to you?" and he replies "I pity on his life situation" in other words he twisted me not only on congregation but also the district who knows him and respect him and in return all of them hates me for the true reason the do not know, and he get a good credits for helping me. now I'm still with JWs, but as an inactive I felt everything is too late for me since i developed my bad temper even it was past already and no one wants to talk to me socially, writing my pain inside me in this guess book makes me feel better and I'm crying inside, I now live by myself, and never had anybody to talk to not even about this. Once again I thank you. shannon_pj@yahoo.com

Thursday, June 25, 2009
@ 12:46 PM
More on the WTBTS
Just as with other communes not always taking care of 'their' people, neither does the WTBTS. To me, Bethel is not just a big corporation posing as a pearly white religion, it is also a glorified commune. The 'governing body' passes down a whacked out way to handle pedophilia in the congregations, so the elders are totally mixed up, but unaware of it. Yes, I truly see this so-called religion of Jehovah's Witnesses as just another commune that abuses its 'power' over the congregants, the so-called 'rank and file'. It is so sickeningly sad and disgusting. My JW sister told me the other day that the Bible was messed up by translators who went through it and took out God's name Jehovah and inserted Lord and so on. From what I have learned it is more likely the other way around. It wouldn't do any good to try and let her know that the New World Translation is not that accurate and that Bible scholars have found errors in the JW Bible. I wouldn't ever want to use the NWT for a Bible study. I can't talk to her about the pedophile issue, because she thinks that pedophilia occurs rarely among JWs, very seldom. Discussing these things with (no offense to my sister and other JWs) self-righteous Jehovah's Witnesses seems futile. The way one of our brothers puts it, our sister is an "ardent" Jehovah's Witness and there is really no point in talking with her about religion, that it will only make things worse, perhaps really alienate her. I know it is very difficult to try and talk with her about the pedophile issue. She thinks I have walls built up about the so-called "truth". I think she has massive, impermeable walls up about it. What a situation. And many, many other former JWs are in the same boat. Talk about frustration.

Thursday, June 18, 2009
@ 1:05 PM
To all
The Jehovah's Witnesses religion has a persecution complex, but the ones who are persecuted are the victims of pedophilia and other kinds of abuse. Now THEY are the ones who have been getting persecuted! Please, JWs get this straight. Open your eyes and ears to what is really going on! Protect the children and other victims and let the 'governing body' and the elders be big boys and take care of themselves while they look after the victims the way they should be doing! Don't look after the 'governing body' and the elders. That's their own responsibility! Look after the children and the other victims. Please! Wake up!

Wednesday, May 27, 2009
@ 12:37 PM
To all
It is as if the WTBTS has built walls around it to make them impervious to justice being done to them regarding pedophilia and other kinds of abuse. It makes me so mad that they are getting away with so much!! They seem to have a fortress to protect themselves while the victims have nothing to protect them. I wish that JWs could see this 'religion' for what it really is - - just a controlling, uncaring big business posing as the 'true religion'.

M.A.N. Friday, May 22, 2009
@ 8:02 PM
A quick correction
I wanted to clarify something I posted in case anyone checked into it and was confused. Orlando is the major city in Central Florida. It's newspapers, radio, and TV stations serve this area well. I live in Brevard County right next to the Space Center. Orlando is actually in Orange County, which is the next one west of my county. I use Google maps often and I didn't want anyone to get confused about the geography. I hope this helps. M.A.N.

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